I Lay

[Crepuscule]

There's also some confusion as lay is also the past tense of lie, but it looks like you're speaking in the present tense.

Here I lie, reminiscing all the moments,
I stare above and see the night sky,
The sky was lonely as me, starless and dark, bit of a conflict of tense here
I lie, wondering, if somewhere across the globe, you think the same thoughts.

I lie unmoving,
controlling the urge to give in,
All efforts to do so was futile,
Thinking of us, not knowing what to expect,
Left and betrayed by my courage,
emotion filled me, loneliness and sorrow.
As a single tear drops, multitude of others follow.

I lie, feeling the uselessness of my efforts,
All bravery and courage drained,
Robbed of my good judgement,
Any logical and reasonable train of thought abandoned,
Feeling helpless, meaningless, fruitless, abortive, pointless, purposeless and most of all incompetent.

I lie, as I've always have lain,
when my world was empty and you weren't there,
Now, that world embodies me again.
A world of full of darkness,
A world of a winding and never-ending road,
A world without you.

I lie, as darkness overshadows me,
Emotions overlapping,
Despair creeping closer,
Finally, it is all over.