I Lay

[milo]

There I lay, reminiscing ,
the night sky,
as lonely as I, starless and dark.
I lay, wondering, if somewhere across the globe, you thought the same thoughts as I did.

I lay

Thinking of us,
betrayed by my courage,
loneliness and sorrow filled me.
multitudes of tears followed a single tear.

I lay, feeling useless
bravery and courage drained,
Robbed of judgement,
reasonable thought abandoned,
Feeling helpless, meaningless, fruitless, abortive, pointless, purposeless and most of all incompetent.

I lay, as I've always lain,
when you weren't there,
Now, that world embodies me again.
A world of darkness,
A world of a winding and never-ending road,
A world without you .

I lay, as darkness overshadowed me,
Emotions overlapping,
Despair creeping closer,
it was all over.

Just trimming some superfluous verbiage helps somewhat

It still reads a lot like a thesaurus entry for "I feel bad" and it lacks much poetic language, but at least it is a shorter list of anguish.

milo