mental illness?

[Brownlie]

I've seen people who you could understand wouldn't be OK after their experiences. It's an unfortunate reality that if you grow up in an abusive family, you're more likely to fall into substance abuse, rape, and other such events. A mixture of these almost always leaves a mark on a person.

the trouble with the net is we can't say what experiences those writing have had i was molested as a kid, beaten on a daily basis by different stepdads/uncles, in care for most of my preteens. i was a coke head, speedfreak, heavy drinker and while they left a mark they didn't leave me disabled because of all those things i feel i got to know myself better. i know for instance i have an addictive nature, i know none of the bad things were my fault. i realised most of this by the time i was 16 or so, the addictive knowledge came later

when i say damage themselves or others, i mean through violence etc. not drugs but sheer mental screw up violence. lashing out for no reason. dissecting house pets for fun...for me, that's some scary shit

i know a cartload of people who are screwed up because of their upbringing or experiences but i still can't see ho they let it get them down, my mind isn't geared up that way. i absolutely know they are like that for a reason but i just can't see it

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my niece is disable, she has downs syndrome, (she can't be repaired and she can't function normally, she's broken but beautiful) she's not a lesser human being for being the way she. i think political correctness has a lot to say sorry for.

I have a feeling you're a remarkably good man I was truly touched by your autobiographical information thanks for sharing. You might want to consider writing memoirs. Your post was humbling.