mental illness?

[Rose Love]

Intelligent self consciousness is a mental illness...because we're animals. To evolve morality is to suffer, because it's against our nature.

I disagree. To live among the immoral is to suffer.

And some have more intense drives than others. For everyone that suffers through empathy for others, there's someone that suffers worse when they can't hurt others or at least use others as means to an end. And you can empathize with those people too. The bad people. And despite what people say, the low down, coldhearted people are respected more in the moment, as they live and do the things they do. People will look at someone that's "good", in an abstract way, and say they're the good, pure ones. But normally it's the ones that betray and cheat and hurt others that are more interesting and that have happier lives. To be strong in body and mind and actions. The culture I belong to is fascinated with those people. To be tough and hardcore and viscious; people envy and admire those qualities in people.

That is one of the things that is so depraved about this world. I certainly don't and never will envy such qualities. I think they are inhuman and barbaric.

Moreover, who cares what people think? When you have a conscience and a moral compass you live by, you don't give a rat's a§§ about any of that. You live by your morals and principles, and by your heart, which connects you to your morals by your empathy, and that's it. You don't sit and intellectualize about how you should behave to best position yourself in the world, as if you have no conscience or feeling for anyone else and as if you actually care about others' opinion of you so much that you will sell yourself just so that they will look upon you in a certain way. That is a really ingratiating and weak state of existence.