Tired

[aerickson]

I’ll wash my brain and dirt my feet,
I’ll dance in mud and skirt packed streets,
I’ll live and die before my hair turns gray.

I said before I settled down, - not totally sure what you are saying here. What did you say? Are you saying you said the first stanza? It's confusing since it doesn't fit with the line after and the line before has a period.
pretended love and hid my frown,
and wrinkled up to die of cold old age.

This poem doesn't sound defiant to me at all, as another poster said, it sounds like regret to me. Like life didn't go as planned.