5 Months

[i.might.be.a.bit.sad]

In November,
I told myself I loved him
I told myself my heart raced for him.
I told myself I smiled for him.
I told myself I would remember every moment.

In December,
My heart raced,
as he chased me.
I remembered every moment-
His hand on my arm.
Running running, running.
My backpack making bruises on my arms.
Screaming at someone ANYONE to help me.
Looking at their faces, as no one did.
I did not love, because of him
I did not smile, because of him.

It is May.
I smile for her.
My heart beats with hers.
I love her, and I remember every beautiful moment.

I don't have to tell myself anything.