I should smile more

[matsunosuperfan]

Okay, here we go.

I should smile more
                                        
First I hated silence
as I found my own voice
soft and easy
on the ears of those who called me
common and grotesque—
              I actually really like this stanza, it's surprisingly relatable to be called common, even if by yourself in your own mind and grotesque is a nice contrast
I knew no deformity
except that like them, I was hungry            (is this the same them from before? it feels detached almost)
after every scrap of love
that falls down 
off the truck.
                 
Then I hated speech                      (I like the callback to the first stanza)
because my words were useless
salted water
running from a stranger's face
who knew just what I was—

the ocean understands
even when I'm thirsty, raving
in the folds of blue immensity
I can't contain
forever.

Now I am alone, people
surround me
holding crooked hands
up to their eyes
as if they might see something
like the sun!

Sorry if this isn't as thought out as you'd like. I've only just joined this site. Overall I like this poem a lot, it brings up a lot of emotions from my sophomore year of HS, which I didn't quite enjoy but it's productive to reminisce on I think.

Thank you for reading. All feedback is useful, and yours certainly is. Welcome and have fun!