Apathetic Suicide

[AllisonBangert]

It's 3:00 am and I don't care
It's dark out and I don't care

I was screaming and feeling
I swear I was
I was crying and sobbing,
throbbing and wanting to die

It's 3:05 am and I don't care
the house is silent and I don't care

I was laughing and smiling
I promise I was
I was singing and humming,
running and wanting to win

It's 3:15 am and I don't care
I have to wake early and I don't care

I was holding back tears, contemplating
Worried about my loved ones
Worried about my future
Worried about dying
Scared to do it
Scared to be so selfish
I was screaming, I swear
I promise, I was

It's 3:30 am and I'm crying again
But I don't care
I'm not worried about my loved ones
I'm not worried about my future
I'm not worried about dying
I'm not scared to do it

It's 4:00 am and I don't care
It's 4:00 am and I won't wake up
It's 4:00 am and I don't care