Apathetic Suicide

[billy]

It's 3:00 am and I don't care
It's dark out and I don't care

I was screaming and feeling
I swear I was
I was crying and sobbing,
throbbing and wanting to die

It's 3:05 am and I don't care
the house is silent and I don't care

I was laughing and smiling
I promise I was
I was singing and humming,
running and wanting to win

It's 3:15 am and I don't care
I have to wake early and I don't care

I was holding back tears, contemplating
Worried about my loved ones
Worried about my future
Worried about dying
Scared to do it
Scared to be so selfish
I was screaming, I swear
I promise, I was

It's 3:30 am and I'm crying again
But I don't care
I'm not worried about my loved ones
And I'm not worried about my future
And I'm not worried about dying
And I'm not scared to do it

It's 4:00 am and I don't care
It's 4:00 am and I won't wake up
It's 4:00 am and I don't care

I don't know the protocol for a situation like this, but suicide seems like a rash decision feelings can be changed. As for the poem try and be more specific about what your trying to express. Please don't kill yourself I don't want that on my conscience. Leave feedback on other poems it's something to do at least right? If you try to kill yourself and an ambulence comes they will send you away to a hospital where life is very boring

the protocol is to just read the poem as a poem and not a plea for help